Hello!
I am still going STRONG! I have not smoked any cigarettes, used any drugs and have only drank a few times (albeit slightly too much) all week. And best of all, I have not binged once in TWO FULL WEEKS!!!
Five Reasons I Am Finally Succeeding:
1. I am actually eating the 1800-2000 calorie diet my nutritionist has prescibed.
2. I am only exercising as my fitness councelor recommends.
3. I am actually taking time every day, at least and hour, to myself to journal, etc.
4. Jeremy. He is so supportive and loving and affirming.
5. My new psychologist. She is actually an ED specialist and helping me get to the root of my problem.
Right now I am on vacation with my family in a very secluded mountain town, getting away. I was really stressed about the trip because I often have extreme ED problems when I am at home. I am feeling pretty centered right now though, and considering it is the holiday season I am relatively relaxed. Getting away from my grandparents is great (sorry, their horrid), I think this may be one of my best Thanksgiving weeks in years. I am still not feeling 100% secure with my newfound freedom from ED symptoms, but I am really getting there.
I am so blessed to have my whole family here and together, and I am soo looking forward to sitting around here all week, hiking, writing, reading, and catching up with work and family. Definite centering time.
I miss Jeremy incredibly. I still haven't seen him, it's been a week and still a week to go. I am realizing how much I cheated myself in my last relationship, now that I am with someone who actually loves me. He calls, he misses me, he says such sweet things. The other day he was out when I called, and I was a bit emotional and I told him I loved and missed him. He said, "I'm melting, your so sweet. I love you too babe." It just felt so good. I picture the moment I get to fall back into his arms constantly.
Oh, and one last thing: Now that I have decided to stop dieting (one of those self-help books told me it was a form of oppression), I've lost 3 lbs in the last few weeks. Who knew?
:)
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