As such, I will dedicate this post to:
THE TOP 5 REASONS LIFE WITHOUT BULIMIA ROCKS!!
1. I love myself. I am proud of my accomplishments, respect the person I am and fully embrace my present self. Hell, I even like the way I look naked :)
2. I have time to really pay attention to all the relationships in my life. When I was in ED mode, I never felt I had enough time for my friends and family, let alone the ability to maintain a great relationship. Now I feel so surrounded by love, it's incredible.
3. I'm happy. I am less stressed, more appreciative, more connected and generally feel lucky to be meandering this Earth (as opposed to resentful about having to do so).
4. I am more successful. Without ED I am much more competent in the lab and less tressed, and my colleagues have noticed. My lab director told me the other day how far I had come recently. I am calm, focused and crazy about my work. Yeeaahh neuroscience research, bring it on Grad School!
5. I have time to figure out what my interests are and enjoy them. I read, blog, paint, sculpt... all these parts of me that ED occluded have re-emerged. The other day I bought 30 feet of butcher paper (a little impulsive) and today I played with it:
Haha, no Kandinsky but I had fun.
The point is, recovery rocks. And I want to thank everyone who helped get me to this point because the little blog community serious helped. To those still struggling: There is hope! You can do it! Please know there is another side, with so much life and love to be had!
So much love,
xKimX
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15 comments:
While this is all EXCELLENT news I am most compelled tell you you have adorable hair. Someday I will get the balls to cut my hair short...someday...
Glad you are doing so well though!!!!
Oh Kim, I am so proud of you. One month binge free is awesome! Remember that slippage will probably happen and that recovery is not always smooth- hell, it's rarely smooth- but that it is important to just pick yourself up and begin again. That being said, I think it is amazing that you have broken the binge/purge cycle. :) You truly have come very far in only one month!
I'm very happy for you:) I also must agree with Caitlin that your hair just plain rocks!
I ditto Caitlin and CAKS about you're hair being awesome but more importantly, this is such a HUGE milestone, wow!
And people's comments on the difference really goes to show how far you've come!In-cred-ib-le!
:D
<3 V
p.s - your painting is cool. I like it!
Once again I am compelled to tell you just how amazed I am by how far you have come in such a short time...what do you think the turning point was, what triggered your recovery?? Im curios cause I am struggleing so much right now and I cant seem to find balance, you seemed to have balanced it all and are so happy, I am so very proud of you!!!
COngratulations on finding LIFE!!!!
Love, Z
Thanx for the visit and the comment and congrats on your one month aniversary. Greetings from crappy New Mexico, Melody Lee
Caitlin- Thanks! I'm flattered :)
Em- Thanks for the sobering advice, good to keep n mind, esp for us all-or-nothing ed types
CAKS- Thanks so much :)
V-Thanks a ton, I can't wait to read this stuff in your posts. and on the painting... well thnks but it's certainly no virginia :)
Z- my turning point was really my decision ton fight full force like a cancer- therapist, nutritionist, exercise councelor, self-help books, meds for a short while, journals, blog, everything at once. after about 100 days of that, something clicked. like i said to v, can't wait to read this on your blog.
Mel- hey again! glad you came by! and at least your warm in nm...
You have made some great points.
I am so proud of you! I love this post! Isn't it amazing what happens without an ED?
Leon- I love new readers! Thanks!
Kyla- I am so glad that you are doing so well too, and yes it is amazing. un friggan believable. Yay! Go us!
How are you doing today sweetheart? I came back to reread your post to give me some hope, It up lifted my spirits to see a feelow struggeler doing so well...you ROCK!!!
love, Z
Aww, sorry to hear your having such difficulties Z. Post today I promise!
Holy shit! Not only are you a total babe, but you are also talented and insightful, compassionate and humble... Hook a sista up with yo' bad self... yummmmy!
Awesome Kim! Isn't it WONDERFUL when you realize how great life can be????
Keep enjoying your newfound freedom. It rocks!
L,E,R- Haha, Thank you mucho! Wow, your making me blush :) It's true I am quite the fortunate broad.
SitR- FREEDOM- That's exactly what it is!!! I haven't been able to really put the right word to it- life is fuller, happier- but FREE, that is the true difference. I am no longer imprisoned by that awful illness. Seriously, I think you just inadvertantly gave me a revelation!
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