New Phase

I have fallen into a pattern with my eating disorder recovery. I do well for about 3 days, then I stop journaling, don't sleep enough, start restricting or get stressed out. Essentially, I stop taking care of myself. Over the last week I have not kept a food diary. At first I was doing very poorly- I was still planning my meals out, restricting and stressing about how much I had eaten. This of course lead to overeating and more guilt. Yesterday, however, I did not plan my meals out in advance. I simply ate what sounded good when I wanted it. As a result, I think I actually consumed about the amount my nutritionist recommended. Wow, another revelation of the obvious. I'm excited and surprised that following hunger cues is actually something I may be capable of.
I felt for a while as though I had platteaued in my recovery, but I think this may be the start of the next phase. I will stop keeping a food diary but continue journaling about my recovery.
I did not think I was capable of following my body's signals, but now I know I am.

The painting here is one I did over the summer. Writing, painting and sculpting are all creative outlets I enjoy, and now that I am a bit healthier I have actually found time and motivation to do these things recently. My life really is better without bulimia.