A New Chapter?

I went out with the new guy on Monday and I had a really fabulous time- really great conversation. He has a lot of ideas and experiences and such, but more important than that he is really open and straightforward. He seems to be very in to me, but I am trying to be a little reserved. I want to learn from my last mistake and not invest myself in something before I know what exactly that something is. Holding back isn't my strong suit though, I am pretty all or nothing. I will likely see him again tonight or tomorrow and I am really looking forward to it despite myself.
Funny, it seems as soon as I swear off men I find one. A couple of weeks ago I found myself realizing that a new realationship is just a "ghost solution" I had put in my head- something that seems like the cure-all for life's downs. I have lived long enough to know that landing that guy, getting to that weight, getting that scholarship/job/award etc.- these things won't fix it all. There will still be ups and downs, good days and bad days. So I told myself to stop looking for a guy, because he wouldn't dso me any good anyway. The saga continues.

In terms of ED progress, I have been very healthful today, but other than today the bingeing has been as bad or worse as it was a couple of weeks ago. I am not performing my exercise purges any longer, however. My body seems to have leveled off and I am not really gaining weight any more. I am exercising regularly and sleeping somewhat regularly. I think this may be as good as it gets for me for a while.
One major difference: although the behavior hasn't changed, my emotions surrounding it have. I am not lonely or depressed very frequently before hand (usually just bored or tense), and I am no disgusted and depressed and self-loathing after. I am just going through the motions with minimal emotional response. This is a HUGE improvement, it is nice not to hate myself.
I took a quiz online that tells whether you have ED. In July I scored 89 (75 guarentees ED), and yesterday I only scored 38. I am making tremendous progress.