Ugh. I just went out to a big steak dinner with my family and I feel totally gross. I suppose it wouldn't qualify as a binge because it was not "significantly more than most people would eat in a similar situation" and also because I was not alone, but the tight-skinned bloated belly certainly feels binge-like. I have a plan for tomorrow and I am truly trying to treat myself well; I will keep my portions in check.
Being with the family 24/7, being on vacation, and it being Thanksgiving week, I would say this is an ultimate test of my ability to truly achieve a state of ED recovery. I am determined.
On the success side, I did manage to avoid all processed foods today- no Doritos, Oreos, or other junk traps my family keeps stocked. Even better, way out here I am in no danger of any drug use, and I'll probably only have a total of about one bottle of wine all week, so the staying clean thing is going well (by default).
I'm still really worried about J drinking. I don't want him to have to run from anything. I understand that the fact that he recognizes and wants to fix the problem is huge, and I know he will. My problem is trying not to get overly involved. Where do I draw the line? I know I shouldn't guilt or nag him or push him into anything he doesn't want to do, but can I express to him how it worries me? Can I tell him I can't see myself staying with a man long-term who doesn't have that under control? Because that is true. I just love him and want him to be OK, and I don't want our relationship to develop any unhealthy codependencies. I dunno, maybe I'm making this bigger than it is, I'm just worried.
Happy Thanksgiving all... ha. ha. ha.
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4 comments:
Girl, you absolutely do NOT want a co-dependent relationship. I would seriously approach him in a non-condescending & caring manner and suggest that he may benefit greatly from therapy. I you two love each other & want to keep the relationship healthy and alive, it's a thing you can do together as a team. The down-side is that you can also "cheat" as a team. My ex and I did that all the time (and still do on occassion). Of course, this is much easier said than done, but it surely CAN be done.
It sounds like you are actually doing quite well as far as not being too hard on yourself about the eating thing. Always keep in mind that you will stumble along the way. We all do. It's okay!Best wishes:D
Thanks so much for your input... I definitely intend to do that but I am still working out exactly how to go about it. Since I am lost if I don't see my shrink twice a week, I think I should be able to handle the non-condescending part.
The not cheating as a team thing is something I am really glad you pointed out- I can absolutely see how easy that would be, and how hard it would be to stop.
Thank you!!!
xKimX
I think asking him to get some support outside of his immediate relationships would be benerficial to himself and everyone around him. There must be something deeper that he's having trouble facing or something, it's an addiction after all.
And super congrats on the meal - it is normal to overeat or be stuffed from time to time especially in a fam steak dinner!
I also reckon a bottle a week is a normal amount to drink. But the UK does have a culture problem of excessive drinking at the mo, so I could have warped ideas, lol!
Also, I've gone 3 weeks without councilling before, I think I can manage, but it'll just be hard at the mo specifically because I'm not doing so great, but it'll be ok.
V
Hope you have a great thanksgiving.You can do this!!!, Iand I agree you definately dont want to be in a co-dependent relationship...my mom was in one for years and it nearly destroyed her..
Love, Z
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